“God wants only what is for your good and joy.” Rule - On Poverty
Trusting in God and God’s providence is one of the hardest things we are asked to do. As human beings, we like to be in control of all that affects us. We think - who knows better what we need and what we want than ourselves! Yet it has been made clear to us that there is a difference between what we WANT and what we NEED.
When we pray for something for ourselves or for someone else, we have learned quickly, and often with disappointment, that we don’t always get what we ask for. Sometimes what we ask for comes to us in a way we least expected. Maybe we think God is playing games with us.
Actually, our God knows better what it is we need and when we need it. We pray for something that we want NOW, but it becomes obvious that now isn’t the time. That’s another thing we have learned. Timing is everything.
So what is St. Angela trying to tell us? I think she wants us to rely more on God than on ourselves. I believe that God is not denying us or punishing us by not giving us what we want when we want it, but that maybe the timing isn’t right or that God is trying to help us learn what it means to trust and have a deeper faith, as well as learning patience. St. Angela knew the strength and courage within her, yet she also knew God’s grace that nourished this very spirit.
Trust in God: Life and Joy will come to us in time. Again, Angela says, “Be ready for big surprises.”
Sister Donna Frey, OSU
Ursuline and Catholic Identity